Thursday, July 28

1 {style board #1}





Crib:Bloom Alma Folding Crib, $400

Cabinet:Hemnes Linen Cabinet, $249

Chair:Eames Rocking Chair, $171

Rhino:Anthropologie, $68

Book Ends: Anthropologie, $58

Poster: Hammerpress, $10

Tuesday, July 26

0 {photography}

http://www.designcrushblog.com/2010/09/16/picture-it-puppy-love/

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I came across these images and I just thought they were adorable. There is something about a giant, beautiful, lovable dog with such a sweet and innocent child. I can't wait to take pictures like these with our Mason. He's already practicing his modeling skills.

Sunday, July 24

0 {fertility lottery}

I recently heard about the British company To Hatch that is hosting a fertility lottery. (Read this.)

I'm, honestly, not sure how I feel about it. On one hand, giving away the opportunity to be parents rids those parents of the journey to get there - however long. On the other hand, being someone who has struggled with conception and worried about how much it might cost to conceive, I feel that the "lotto" could be a blessing to a deserving couple.

This has been hard for me. Waiting, wondering, hoping, praying. In the end, though, I think that my trust that it will turn out however it's supposed to, would keep me from entering a "lotto" to make it happen sooner or easier. 

Side note: I saw this week a gay NY couple won a "lotto" to be the first gay marriage in the state. Looks like Britain isn't the only place being a little controversial.

Saturday, July 23

0 {come on period}

I don't think I  have ever been so anxious to get my period. Come on already!

Wednesday, July 20

0 {good news}

Tim and I went in for my post-op visit. We went in expecting what we heard last time...

I would be given Lupron, a drug that would prevent any ovulation or period for three months so that my lady parts could heal and prepare themselves for a baby. The drug would essentially induce menopause and all of it's lovely effects.

Instead we heard this...

Lupron is only given to patients who are either stage three or stage four. Since I am only stage two, I don't need it. Instead, I will be going on a drug called Letrozole. This drug will induce ovulation and prevent my body from producing too much estrogen , which in turn, makes my body release an egg and also prevents the creation of endometrial tissue that could prevent the egg from finding its way down the fallopian tube. Dr Starks prescribed me 5mg of Letrozol for 5-days at the begining of my cycle. On day 15, I will go in for a sonogram to be sure that the egg has reached its way down the fallopian tube. At that point, the doctor can tell if an egg is ready to be fertilized. If it is, from what Dr. Starks implied, we will go home that evening and make a baby, guaranteed!

Long story short....in a few weeks Tim and I will be with child (for some reason I think that phrase is funny..."with child" heh). We walked out of Dr. Stark's office like giddy kids, jumping up and down and smiling and kissing!! The high hasn't left us since. I know it might take a few cycles, but knowing that we will be parents within the next year is an amazing feeling.

Friday, July 8

0 {yankee doodle BBQ}

The more I write, the sooner it will be realized that I'm a little neurotic - about a lot of things.

Tim and I planned on having a fourth of July shindig a while ago. We love throwing parties. We have designed our backyard for entertaining, so it just feels natural to have people over. (It probably helps that we have really good friends, too.) I spend a lot of time on details - table decor, food presentation, signature drinks, personalized invitations - I love it all. I sent out invitations for our Yankee Doodle BBQ early June. Everyone could make it and the party was set. There was just one problem, well, not really a problem, more like a hurdle. It wasn't until late June I scheduled my laparoscopy for, of all weekends, the first of July.  This is what my weekend looked like:

  • Friday - surgery, slept all day, sore, bloated. 
  • Saturday - prep, cook, clean, decorate, bloated. 
  • Sunday - church, in-laws in town, cook, nap, party.

While my whole body was exhausted, a part of me was thrilled by the challenge of throwing a party at 75%. At one point, I think I looked at Tim and said, "You know how some people get their adrenaline rush from roller coasters? I think this is my roller coaster."

Moral of the story: HAVE FUN! Who cares if you just had a minimally invasive surgery. Live it up! 

Saturday, July 2

0 {laparoscopy}

In late May, Tim and I met with a fertility doctor. We didn't know what the outcome would be, we just knew we needed someone to either say "You guys are doing everything right, keep it up!" or "There is a problem, I'm here to help." Either answer would have been fine with us, we just needed confirmation. Up until that point we were taking advice from friends which mostly consisted of "Don't let it stress you out, stress is a huge factor in conception" and "You need to gain weight, you're too skinny" or "It just takes some couples longer." None of those suggestions/answers were cutting it for us.

After meeting with Dr. Starks, Tim and I immediately had a load of stress tumble off of our shoulders. The first thing he said to us was "There is a reason you haven't conceived yet, and I am here to fix it." Just hearing that made us feel so good. We weren't crazy and we weren't doing something wrong, we just needed help.

Once Dr. Starks knew my medical history and we got tested for everything possible, it was determined that I have Endometriosis. He wasn't sure how bad or to what extent, the only way to determine that was through a routine laparoscopy. During a laparoscopy they make a small incision near your belly button, and fill you up with air so that they can see everything. Once in, they assess, then clean off anything that might have cysts or scar tissue on them.

I had my laparoscopy done yesterday. Everything went very well and I am recovering nicely. I only have a small incision near my belly button and I feel like I have been doing major abdominal workouts. One uncomfortable part of recovery, though, is the air that they filled me with - some of it gets trapped inside. It has been slowly rising up and is now in my shoulders creating a really uncomfortable pain. They said to expect this to be gone by tomorrow. He also said that my Endometriosis was at Stage 2, which means that I had several small cysts and some scar tissue.

At this point I just keep smiling. I couldn't care less about the pain - this is our first major step towards becoming parents.

The next step? Induced menopause...WOO HOO for baby-making!!!